Been a long time coming! Overwhelmed and don't know where to start.

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Had a great day!! ALMOST got a spontaneous erection today. well i was talking to this girl at my work, and after i left and was driving home, i was thinking dirty thoughts about her, and i swear i almost got a natural boost down there. I lightly touched it a few times.. LIGHTLY, and it started rising a tiny bit. Not a full one, but hey thats progress. Since PFS, ive always been able to get myself hard through manual stimulation, and alot of those hard ons are only 80-90% at best. Sometimes getting a 100% one since PFS, but theyre somewhat rare. But it felt good. Been doing everything like i mentioned in my last post.

Broke my no fap streak today after 8 days. It felt good though. I had to!!! Started a new one now. Couldnt help it. Just used visual thoughts. No pictures, porn, etc. I like to give it a tug once every 7-15 days.

And just took a straight up cold shower from start to finish!! HOLY FUCK.. it felt amazing! Invigorating as fuck. It was probably only a 90 second shower though. But hey ill be saving on my water bill! HAHAHA!

And ive had zero depression/ anxiety! I mean i still get annoyed with certain things, but thats natural. Honestly... my anxiety has gone away since deciding to do CD's protocol. Basically knowing im finally gonna beat this thing. Been kicking ass in the gym.. i always had crazy veins... but i feel like my body has more veins NOW than it ever has!!! I love it! Pumped as shit! And i havent even started the herbs yet!! Just waiting on that last one from amazon! Once again, FUCK YOU amazon! Amazon should suck my dick in the future once i beat PFS... it will be a tough one for amazon to SWALLOW!! AHAHHAAHA!! oh man.. im feeling good as fuck.

Havent had much morning wood lately, but it always comes and goes. Depends on how i sleep. Even with PFS, theres been times where ill get morning wood 9 days in a row. Then there will be times where i wont get it for a few weeks. Regardless, i would say im definitely around 35%-40% at the moment.

Man, when i beat this thing, i would like to get sexual revenge from the last girl i fucked back in March, one year ago. It was roughly close to this time one year ago. My life changed forever at that point. I knew i needed to man up. I still wasnt fully aware of my problem yet at the time, but sub-consciously, i think i knew. It wasnt till i had a GOOD experience in november 2016, and december 2016 that i finally realized it was 100% PFS. She was nice and shitty at the same time. (the one from march 2016) But it taught me a lesson. We were so compatible too... despite what she says. We only met for a few days.. but we had been talking for almost a year. She couldve been the one. The things that happened leading up to, and during that experience. Man it was an epic story. I would love to tell the story sometime. Im over her now, to the point where im open to other women, and i dont care what she does. And im sane now too. But in a sense, ill never be "over" her. That was my lifelong fantasy woman... and for a reason too. ONE DAY.....