Originally Posted by
Ratchet
Hey,
Keep moving forward. It sounds like you’re doing everything right, so you will heal. And the better news is: if you’re doing something wrong (and you know if you are), then you have your solution (stop doing what you shouldn’t be). Otherwise, this is a test of faith. I’m a fucking atheist, and there are many days that I want to break down and pray to the powers that be.
I would bet that what you and I are dealing with (re: my thread) is completely stress induced, or at least significantly exacerbated by.
Here’s a new tool for you. Anytime you feel anxious or like you’re about to break down, pause. Acknowledge it. Remove yourself from that thought. Then return to your breath and whatever you’re doing. That’s your meditation now; That’s you removing yourself from your thoughts and being present; that’s your mental bicep curl. You might have to do this 15x in 30 minutes. Doesn’t matter. The more reps you do of this, the better you will be able to combat your anxiety and your downswings. There will be days when you will revert right back to the thoughts that you thought you had already put to rest. Don’t let that deter you. The only way to devour a whale like this is one bite at a time, or some shit like that.
I wish I was good at taking my own advice. I wouldn’t be on this forum so frequently or looking for reassurance regarding every feeing, thought, and side effect I experience. But, I suck at self validation, and I pay a lot of money to my therapist to tell me that. I am in the same boat as you rn, and so are a lot of the guys on this forum. We’ll call ourselves PFS grads class of 2020. Better days really are on their way.